As vezes me pergunto, será que eu vivi o suficiente pra minha falta ser sentida?Será que eu vivi certo? será que eu fiz a diferença de algum jeito? A vida é muito relativa, muito insólita, o que é certo não é notável.
Sou muito sutil, viso sempre o bem-estar do todos, nunca o que eu estou sentindo. Muitas vezes pensei, será que vão reconhecer tudo o que eu já fiz? Mas um dia minha ficha caiu, não é o julgamento humano que importa, aquele que faz o correto, vai ser recompensado de alguma forma. Isso não me incomoda mais, o que realmente me dói é a possibilidade de eu morrer, sem meus amigos perceberem que eles foram importantes pra mim, e que muitas vezes eu pareci desinteressada com medo de ser aquela que ‘sufoca’ ao ponto de ser irritante. Pode parecer mentira, mas já passei noites acordada pensando em problemas que não eram meus, tentando arranjar uma forma de ajudar. Eu me importo tanto que prefiro não falar, prefiro não incomodar. Eu prefiro o silêncio. Quantas noite eu já não passei com meus amigos apenas escutando o que eles precisavam falar? Meu modo de viver me ensinou que o silêncio é a forma mais fácil de comunicação, que é realmente importante não é dito com a boca, é dito com os olhos. Palavras formam paradoxos, palavras são traiçoeiras, te fazem se arrepender de telas dito, o que é sincero você percebe através de um olhar, isso é o suficiente. Talvez vocês não entendam o meu medo, talvez vocês não saibam quanto tempo eu passo olhando para o botão de enviar o texto, quebrar essa barreira que eu tenho na minha cabeça, mas as vezes palavras precisam ser ditas, pra ligar aqueles que só falam e acabam esquecendo de escutar o silêncio daquele que fala com um olhar.
Talvez existam poucos no mundo com esse mesmo modo de agir, devo ver isso como uma dádiva, talvez esse seja o segredo de um mundo melhor ou talvez, eu seja só mais um tentando mostrar que se importa, tentando fazer a diferença de um modo silencioso. Um dia vocês vão escutar o meu silêncio.
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My sister woke up this morning so concerned with what was going on in japan, which led to this conversation.
Me:Why are you up so early?
Her:What in the world? Did you not hear about the tsunami?
Me:I did. I know. It's horrible.
Her:Heck yes it is. We need to buy sushi as soon as the sushi place opens.
Her:Oh my goodness. Do i need to explain everything for you?
Me:Yeah. I don't understand why we need to buy sushi?
Her:It's because when you buy something japanese the money goes to japan. or could I send my piggy bank to someone in japan? they need it more then I do. I'll even send them my floaties. I don't need any of it. Why did this happen to japan? they never did anything wrong.
Me:That's just the way mother nature works.
Her:Well where's father nature? I'm sure he's gonna be mad at mother nature. She's hurting her kids. She's a mean mom.
Me:She's not really a mom, thats just what people call it.
Her:Whatever. Whoever this nature lady is, is a pain in the butt. She's always hurting people. Tell her go to mars, and nature herself over there.
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So I just had a phone call with a friend of mine who’s living in Japan. She’s living in Sendai and as you may know that’s the city that got hot the worst. Well, she’s okay and her family too so far, but she was close to tears when she called me and after she told me what happened… I’m crying too.
She said that she’s been in the middle of the street after the earthquake and when the tsunami came, together with her mother and her little brother (2 years old). The water was too fast so they had to hide in the shelter of a house but they knew that the water would rise more and more and that they had to get away from there or else they would drown. They kept yelling and somehow a man saw them from a balcony of the house they were hiding behind. Well, that man jumped down from the balcony and into the water and helped my friend and her mother and brother to get up into the house and the safety even though the water was getting stronger and stronger and making it even more impossible to stand. My friend’s mother insisted on her kids going first and then the man helped her up the balcony too.
She just turned around and he grabbed her hand to get out of the water too when a car (one of hundreds) was being washed down the street and in his direction. My friend’s mother and the other people were yelling… and he suddenly let go of her hand so that she wouldn’t get pulled into the water when the car hit and drowned him.
My friend and her family survived… thanks to a stranger who gave his life to rescue them. He could’ve stayed in the save building but instead he helped them. I was so touched when she told me her story.
I don’t know the name of this man, his story, who he was… but I want to give him a special moment in my prayers today and in the future.